Welcome me back...

"Im a train reck in the morning, im a bitch in the afternoon, every now and then without warning, i could really be mean towards you, im a puzzle yes indeed. Every complex in every way & all the pieces aren't even the box and yet you see the picture clear as day, I dont know why you love you & thats why i love you. You catch me when i fall accept me flaws and all & thats why i love you"- Beyonce.  

I've been pretty busy since my 1st blog. I haven't had time to explore it or even be able to write & gather my thoughts together. Times are rough but i have the drive to continue with my head high keeping my self and family together. This past weekend my sister, mom and i had a small baby shower for my sister-in-law, whos having my 2nd niece Allison Andrea , my middle name is Allison btw but i dont think they choose that because of me ;p. 

Besides that, i have started a wonderful vacation. Im sitting here wondering what's in store for me this winter ( & helping my niece with her state project), as of now i couldn't be happier. I have a wonderful guy by my side who gives me love, inspiration & good faith everyday. My family supports me 100% on the direction im trying to take my life in.  I've had a rough few years and it feels so good to be back on my feet. I haven't written as much as i should be lately, i just been too busy. I want to make this site grow just don't know how to yet ;( any ideas , im open to the public's opinion. 

"lovely hope"

One day i sat waiting to hear the phone ring
hoping it would be a call that would brighten my day
soon the waiting become longer waits
and the hope soon began to vanish
until the day that the phone actually rang & someone knocked on my door
it was not until then that my heart took me in a direction i would of never thought it would take me
it was the simplest way but it gave me hope again
we made it a date & now i am in love. i instantly knew i would fall in love
i was encouraged and blessed for this new direction
although i've been mislead, taken for granted & crushed,
lovely hope laid inside of me dormant all of this time, finally i would be able to fall in love again.